Spring time

WOW.. what a weekend! Its Spring. And this year i'm more aware of it. I couldn't help but clean the house from top to bottom. Now to really clean my temple. And by temple I mean my body inside and out. No you perverts, I mean with food and exercise. .... and maybe even a whole revamp re design of this website. Its so messy....

I joined http://220fitness.com in Venice/Santa Monica Area. Today we ran on the beach with Kangoo shoes! Great low impact bouncy shoe.



only 39 days left till the wedding so i've upped my Workout regime:

Boxing, Kangoo Boot Camp, Cardio Sculpt, Yoga & Pilates. That's 5 days a week. I am 95% vegan during the week, but I don't even think about it. I still take my protein shake twice a day but I just make salads, Juice drinks & Lightly cooked veggies & soups. This last weekend I had some decadent food: Fondu (steak in beef broth) and a bottle of wine. The salt & wine... and probably the onion and garlic in the food reacted pretty bad. My skin is super sensitive and i broke out in Acne on my arms and have a HUGE under skin zit between my eyes and chin. Moral of this story... NO MORE Eating bad. No more eating what my body doesn't like. I just can't fight it anymore. Its hard when the people around you don't eat healthy. But with springtime I'm finding I can't compromise my health and body anymore. If my body rebels against certain foods then that's just the way its gotta be. Many of my friends have been telling me I need to incorporate more oils into my diet. So I did, just a little bit... and my skin is so sensitive that my face has become super oily. Even my fiance commented on it. 

So i'm researching Ayurvedic eating; eating for your personal type. What i'm finding is amazing. Its all about balance. Not one thing is good for everyone. Obviously. Forcing me to eat garlic because its some Miracle ingredient doesn't make sense. It hurts me. And its not in all cultures. The Krishna's don't cook with garlic or onions. Why would I want to eat something that makes me stink? Just because it tastes good? Sugar tastes good, that doesn't make it good for you. So, this book my friend Laur let me borrow is amazing. It talks about eating to balance your personal health & self. There are quite a few web sites dedicated to this knowledge. I can no longer subscribe to what is ok for the general populous to ingest. These companies do not have our best interest in mind. They cater to our weakness and what we're trained at very young ages to love. We associate cakes and pastries and sugar with being rewarded and birthdays and holidays and good feelings. (most people, obviously there are exceptions) 


And in light of the recent world disasters i've taken to becoming an even more hard core survivalist. JUST in case we have to evacuate. I'm learning how to grow my own veggies & would love to take a survive in the wilderness class. Someone scoffed at me about it saying that's never going to happen in our lifetime. I wanted to say WAKE UP! It just happened! We're all watching it daily on the news. Yea, Scoff when I'm carrying you to the pre planned evacuation location where i've buried supplies.

and to end this on a not so psycho way....

Delilah Strong


Pinata Protest Music Video: Jackeee

Hey ya'll. Been busy with the Crackwhore book, but found time to play with my friend Iggi and this awesome band she directed for this fun music video. Check it! AND... Its starring the band Pinata Protest & Me, Satine Phoenix as the Queen of the dead.


Produced, Directed, and Edited by Iggi Ogard

Cinematography by Richard Briglia

Co-Produced by Andrew Hwang

Associate Producer Tamzin Brown

Art Direction by Sarah Bowman

Styling by Tamzin Brown

Make Up by Tamzin Brown and Ashley McCarthy

Hair by Kristal Rose

After Effects by Frank Kirstein 1

My new Favorite Spam Email

This one is TOPS


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I can't believe these people are STILL SPAMMING like this!

Something I read

A girlfriend of mine gave me a book recently called "Nonviolent Communication: A language of Life" by Marshall B Rosenberg. I read it to and from my trip to Tampa. 

Communication, something we do every day, but few know how to actually, honestly, truly communicate. We've grown up learning how to communicate through what we see our parents doing, what they see their parents doing and so on and so forth. We learn from what we hear on the radio, we learn from the TV shows and Movies we see. The problem here is that we, at our basic level (and I say this as an honest generalization) have found it hard to differentiate stories from reality. The feelings people create stories around aren't as complex as the variety we feel and experience every day. We see people dealing with a certain situation on TV a certain way, so we react similarly without concern or thought to the repercussions or effect it may have on another or even others in the real world. What entertains us is not necessarily a healthy way of living to emulate.

We communicate without confirming we're being understood, truly understood, heard, absorbed. This creates a society of dismissive narcissist and passive aggressive hermits. The thing about being a narcissist is that rarely can they admit to being one. Its not a good or bad thing, it is just a way of living that shuts people off around you and shuts you off to other people. Both states of being close people off to one another. 

How long has it been since you had an honest, non judgmental conversation with someone in your family or with a friend? How many times have you asked the other person a question and have gotten the response "I don't know" "nothing" "Whatever". When you get those responses you're not being communicated with/not communicating. I feel very frustrated when I do my best to communicate with another person and get these answers in return because by talking to the person all I want is to communicate with them. 

The book "Nonviolent Communication" has really opened my eyes to a new way of communicating that is honest and holds the Toltec Agreements true:

Be impeccable with your word: Say what you mean, don't leave room for interpretation.

Don't take anything personally: When people attack and judge you it comes from their personal feelings and views at the moment of the attack.

Don't make assumptions: Letting thoughts about possibilities is wasted energy when only the other person knows their true feelings. Ask them.

Do your best: Not more than your best, not less than your best. Know your boundaries.




What's in a name?

I posted a thread on Facebook about people judging people by their name and assuming that a person's name isn't real, then asking what their real names are. What I got out of the thread: DEAR EVERYONE, Do NOT ask people what their real names are. DO NOT ask people what their real names WERE. It is Offensive. It's Rude, Crude and Simply Disrespectful. 

Respect the name that is given. If the person wanted to offer their real name, they would. If they choose at a later date to divuldge that information, let them on their own time. 


Here's the thread:

Larry Tinus I've always referred to you as Satine... nuf said.
Sean Xian Juan Blaine we have to prejudge people the politically correct term is first impression, its an evolutionary survival tactic
Satine Phoenix this goes beyond first impression. First impression is the impression first made by meeting a person. The impression left based on their mannerisms, actions and voice pattern. I'm talking about something even more immediate. "Hello, my name is:" "Hi i'm:. ... That's an interesting name, What's your real name?"
Jennifer Canale Cause people are stupid. No changing that.

Mark Judson Goodrich III Some names are given, some names are taken. Eventually most people come to a point where they decide on what they want to be called. I was named after my great-grandfather and share a name with him and my father. But all my life I've been "Judd".

Some people just can't get their brains around something that simple.
Sean Xian Juan Blaine The name is the very first part of first impression at the vocalization level and it is hugely important. When I use my alias "Juan Gunzalez" I always get questioned so I have a really good response " yo soy bisnieto de domingo antonio gonzales". BTW Satine Phoenix is quite a name to live up to no matter how you got it.
Marty Touchette It is my considered opinion that many people just suck.
Satine Phoenix I don't agree Sean. A first impression doesn't have to include being introduced. You can get a first impression without meeting someone.
Marty Touchette I just think it is a cool name and I don't give a darn from whence it came.
Sean Xian Juan Blaine A difference of opinion damn it, but this is so far a nice thread I like other peoples opinions and now you have me thinking about psychic pre-impressions, we all do swim in the same pond.
Kathleen Nicholas Wolfendon Satine, some just don't have Manners To ask someone after being told the persons name "What's your real name?" is just plain disrespectful all around. 

I introduce my self as Kat or Kathy, I never use Kathleen, i feel more me as Kat or Kathy.


Chef Lina Because some pep don't know any better and ignorant! Some pep growing up in Judgmental family and society. So it comes up when they are interact with others. You have a great name! Thats all what matters!

Sean Xian Juan Blaine I like adding names in the form of titles but I lost "Captain"

Satine Phoenix Some people use it as a way to "get the upper hand" on a very small level. some people are really curious but don't realize that its not their place to ask a question like that.

Sean Xian Juan Blaine ‎@Kathleen, damn right

Satine Phoenix how can u say that about a name Sean? A first impression is based on interaction. With or without a name given. "that guy seems like a jerk" "That girl seems really nice" .. impressions made on actions. With a name included its: "Kat seems really nice" "Mr. Smith seems like a Jerk". First part of a first impression, Last part of a First impression. Is just a piece of the subject: The First Impression.

Sean Xian Juan Blaine ‎@Satine that first vocal exchange can have significant strategy,

Sean Xian Juan Blaine Some times you just like or don't like a person for many possible reasons and I consider this part of my first impression. I look at people with the same perspective as I look at art, and also the same perspective holds for what they say

Kathleen Nicholas Wolfendon You don't need a name to have a first impression, Satine is so right. Your actions upon meeting someone gives the impression not your name. you meet people all day long mostly never get names but you can remember somone solely on the impression they left on you good or Bad. A person's name has nothing to do with an impression of who they truly are or their actions. A name is what we use to help identify each other to have some sort of order in a world of Choas. We all can't go around calling each other "hey you in the blue top." or "Hey girl/boy" 
To Question a name offered to you by that person is offensive, rude and disrespectful.

Maeve Harvey I know what you mean satine. Anytime someone hears my name, they automatically ask what it's short for or I that's my real name. It does get old quick. Why should it matter? It shouldn't. Names are just ways of identifying someone. Just like objects have names. In all essence, we are all the same. It shouldnt matter if it's our birth name or not. I agree with you. If you chose your own name you have more say over who you are. You know yourself better than anyone.

Sean Xian Juan Blaine ‎@ Kathleen, Exactly but some people make outrageous claims and call them selves by names that beg one to question. That is the essence of name people will ask at some point why are you called "-------". I requested friendship of "Satine Phoenix" solely upon her name name I had never seen it before, and hence came about this thread!!!

Ancilla Tilia OMG word. This is my life.

Elle Newlands Can we include people who's first question after I talk about my husband: 'is he American?' ... (he's not)... followed by 'did you marry for a green card?'...

I have learned the hard way that people are often threatened by that and those they don't understand. I am used to the ridiculous comments and questions I get asked on a daily basis (some of them you heard in my stand up) but I go to sleep at night knowing that I am a good person and I do good things, so what others think of me or assume about me is their problem. I sleep well :-)

Kathleen Nicholas Wolfendon ‎@ Sean It may Beg the question that you may want to ask but the true question "Should you ask?" Is the real question to be asked.

Sean Xian Juan Blaine ‎@ Kathleen, there in lies the rub. I feel that at some point you have to, although not neccesarily at the first time you hear it.

Satine Phoenix No Sean. Its pretty safe to say that based on the responses in this thread... There is no rub. People don't want to be asked. At no point do you have to ask. If the person with the name chooses to tell you their name, that's their choice. 

Ok, say you didn't know me until you saw my name. You chose to befriend someone with my name because it seems interesting to you. That is not a first impression. Seeing a picture of someone is not a first impression. Watching a movie where someone is acting is not a first impression. Knowing what a person does for a living is not a first impression. 

Those are all tools that people use to form their own opinions in their head about a person. Their own assumptions. An assumption based on these facts is not a first impression.

Satine Phoenix AND based on this thread people have voiced that they think its rude when people ask them. So... AT NO POINT should anyone ask what a person's REAL name is.

Ancilla Tilia I will never forget the "big name" photographer, who within five minutes of me walking in, bragged about knowing Dita von Teese's "real" name. Wow man, good for you.



What are your thoughts on this topic?

Has what used to be a first impression been clouded and shortened by Social Media? Has the first interaction impression been subsituted with the Web Video, Info page on Facebook, Photo page and friend list? Does your Web Presence = YOU? Has society decided to interpret every day people's actions like they do through analyzing Paparazi pictures?

Call me old fashioned, I really try not to judge people by predetermined stereotypes. When you assume, you make an ass out of yourself. 

It seems people can take someone with the name John more seriously than someone named Fragidy. 

Are we programmed this way? There was a really good segment of This American Life yesterday where they talked about how people process things that are familiar to them vs things that are "foreign" to them. How they react is based on how they grew up, how they saw others react and where they are regionally. Pretty interesting stuff. 

What are your thoughts.

Fun time with friends

Yesterday I got my PROFESSIONAL makeup kit. Looks... very professional.

So, my friend/old roommate Larry of Bootiful.com came by with Ashton. He took pictures of her around Beverly Hills, but the best pics were in my house! I did her makeup and He took the pictures. SO MUCH FUN!



I'm auctioning Used and Not used Sex toys, BDSM Gear and a couple of dresses on Thursday from 12 - 3pm. 

Some have been used on Porn or Modeling sets and some I've acquired thinking I was going to use them but never got around to it.

After i'm done drawing today I'll post pictures of what i'm auctioning so you guys can check them out before the auction.